You Just Don't Get It

I practically spell it out for you

Hell, I tell you EXACTLY what's on my mind

I couldn't be more clear if I wanted too

Ooooh, but now YOU want something?....DECLINED!

You just don't get it

And I don't think you ever will

The chances of you understanding

Are as rare as a two dollar bill

You say "you're beautiful" or "you look nice"

Except you don't say them on your own

I always have to ask how I look

Instead, it should already be known

Listen to and respect my needs

You know, the shit I'm doing for you

All because I want US to be happy

Changes and sacrifices are needed to push through

So why do I feel so alone

When we are supposed to do this as a team

Instead I feel I'm the only one changing

So we can do right and live out our dream

So what the hell is it going to take

For you to show me true appreciation?

I need more than just cheap words

Fuck the stories, the excuses, and justifications

Time to Change

No matter how hard I try I can never get it right

Insecurities & past experiences just make me want to fight

Then I look back at the relationships I saw growing up

And I realize I'm living like my mom just a little more close-up

I now see this problem with my eyes wide open

I'm going down the same path; insecure, sad, and broken

But how do I change something I've been taught my whole life

When all I want to do is be a happy, secure, and loving wife

I now feel that I lost the man I love with all my heart

All because of watching repeating relationships fall apart

Damnit, I need & know that something has to give

Or any relationship I have will end up nothing but fights and being negative

So if I want to love right, changing is my only solution

It's time to find & love myself...time to start a new revolution

Dishonesty

Dishonesty in a relationship cuts deep inside your soul

The trust is gone and inside you no longer feel whole

Negative thoughts on repeat, running through your mind

While you sit there hoping they stop so you can unwind

Your stomach feels nauseous thinking of all the lies

Trying to stop thinking about it, you find ways to improvise

Unfortunately everywhere you look, you always get reminded

How someone you trusted everything with left you so blinded

So before you decide to sneak around and be dishonest

Just remember everything that you have said & promised